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Dreamed last night that I was in a rural town. It was a place of open spaces, few houses, and acres of forests, fields and ranches. I spent some time looking for a place to rent in the dream (no doubt triggered by my late night surfing of the apartment listings). There was a place where people worked. I worked there and it was more of a modern office with lots of windows and skylights, computers and engineering stations.

At one point in the dream, I was supposed to go touring with one of my older sons and my daughter. I had agreed to go with them, but at the last moment I asked them to take me to the office. There was something I needed to do there, or something I needed to pick up. They did so and I told them I'd run in and be right back out.

Once inside, I realized that I wasn't going to be able to leave. There was some project that required attention. I also realized, after a long time passed, that my kids were already off on the tour. I also realized that I was in both places--with them on the tour and also there at work. I was moving in two parallel worlds and doing so without effort. I was in both places.

I recall being amazed at discovering that I had managed to split my being into two manifestations, and send them on their separate paths. I was pondering this state of things as I awoke.

The locale of the dream reminded me of some place that I've been. Not exactly the same, but similar. There was a peacefulness about the whole area. It was bucolic and heavily lush with grasses, trees, and wildflowers. Somewhat like the hill (mountain) in the Sound of Music.
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Went to the chiropractor for a re-exam and treatment. I'm better and have been given the go ahead to reduce my number of weekly visits. Have to maintain my current state of flexibility or it's back to three days. So, is good news. Lightens the load somewhat.

Also going to alter my times there--do early morning visits. Have to be out and about by 9AM now to meet the new schedule.

Came away feeling good about myself, about the progress I have made so far. Things are aligning.
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Spotty rains falling here and there. I finally settled on a place to eat lunch while there was a break in the clouds. Frittata made my day. Have all manner of odd things going on with my body. The antibiotics are starting mess with my GI tract. I'm still getting twinges in my teeth. I managed to bite my tongue somehow, somewhere. I don't recall doing it, but I have a puncture wound that looks like a nail was driven through the back left side of the appendage.

I'm feeling restless and disjointed. I keep having moments of exhilaration followed by troughs of dissatisfaction, unease. One part of me wants to just ignore all of the ugly stuff and act as if the world was one where I'd won the lottery. Another part is in retreat, is underground, is hidden.

About time to head for L's and some chai, perhaps. Time to stop and take a short rest, stop moving, and stop the chatter.
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Late evening now. Just got back from dance class and dinner with L. Been thinking about what makes me feel good. By contrast, what doesn't make me feel good. Not so much in specifics, but by focusing on what does.

Dancing, reading, sleeping, eating, and writing make me feel good. Lots of things do not, but I don't wish to dwell on them anymore. Yoga, exercise, walking, and feeling free to do what I want makes me feel good. Question becomes just how to do more of what feels good and thereby less of all that doesn't.

I feel that I've been spending a lot more time on negatives to the detriment of positives. Time to remedy that condition. How exactly is not clear. But importance of doing so is becoming painful to ignore.

That's all of the philosophical noodling for today. Time to hit two pleasure points--reading and sleeping.