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I said I was going to start my story writing today. April Fools! I didn't do it.

I am in a general funk. Health concerns, money concerns, life concerns. Did dream last night, but don't recall what it was about. Perhaps something still related to the last two connected dreams. But not for sure.

Finished Queen of Dreams -- masterful story and blending of dreams with narrative sections. Elegant and admirable. I'm really jealous as well. I too wish to write such work.

Am still nursing my GI tract. Have managed to not turn myself into a trash compactor, but am doing so by limiting what I'm ingesting. No fun in that and I'm already growing tired of doing it. But until I sort out what's happening it seems the best strategy.

Just came back from dancing. I was low energy (low fuel intake). L will be getting a job offer. She had a good followup interview today. So she'll soon be back on the wheel. I'm happy for her, but despondent over my situation. I keep finding myself in one of Murakami's wells.

I guess the Buddha says that when you find yourself in well go deep. Be in the well.

Right! Words to perish by. I'm not functioning. My systems are slowing down, sputtering, and are not working properly. May have to go back to the doctor if my GI issues don't right themselves. Got to get my own kitchen. Will be one big step back onto the health path.

Coming up on the witching hour. Time to shut this meandering modulation down and dream some dreams. Perhaps a dream about my GI tract. Oh, yeah!