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Last night's dreams involved clusters of people and something to do with sequencing them in groups according to some criteria. I could see how they were supposed to be arranged. It had to do with a mathematical progression, one that applied universally even though there were distinct differences with each cluster.

Seems like the bulk of the dream involved arranging and rearranging pods of people so that they were in the correct order.

Dream was stripped down, sort of flat and colorless.

Go to sleep late again--read almost all of the A&D book. Action has taken some bizarre turns and directions. Events becoming very unlikely and preposterous.

Sat in on the DEF webcast this morning. Telephone made it through the whole presentation. Brought back memories of day's past. Some of the same people still the same. Also a lot of the same material and bullet points. But, will see if it leads anywhere. Not much juice in all of it for me. Decisions. Making decisions.

Story of teen who was caught stealing and who figured he had 1 in 10 chances of being caught. Even though he had stolen over 40 items. Probability approaches certainty if calculated across all actions. I wonder if that applies to getting published. If a person keeps repeating, keeps sending out submissions, does that increase the likelihood of publication. Assuming that the material is publishable, the odds should be increased. Much more so than if nothing is ever sent. P(x)=0 if x is never done.

So x or die. A variation on an old formula.

Spoke with RR yesterday. Feel badly about not being able to really help him. He sounds really whacked and disjointed. He was totally confused about this week's events and last week's meeting. He was confused as to why RM was going to come by his place. He was lamenting not working, but it doesn't sound like he has much choice in that area right now. And the IRS is starting to attach his disability checks, leaving him even less to use for his recovery. Sad, but not much to be done.

Decisions, decisions. How they affect a person's life. How outcomes don't determine the quality of the decision. Good decisions can have bad outcomes. Bad decisions can have good consequences. Round and round, the wheel hits the ground.
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Finished the A&E book. Somewhat disappointing conclusion since it was based on so many improbables. But, was still a page turner. Nearly read the whole thing in a 24-hour period--did read it all in about two days (daze).

Managed to get out around lunch time (after the webcast and shower) and then proceeded to burn up several hours--as normal. Clearly, I need to restructure my daze (days) and nights (afternoons and evenings). Clearly. So clear that I keep seeing it and not doing anything about it.

And I won't bore myself by repeating my daily mantra about getting organized and making plans.

Was with L at the shopping center picking up some produce. There was a woman there buying stuff who really looked familiar. She had sunglasses on so I couldn't see her face clearly, but when she walked past I could have sworn I'd seen her someplace. Later, it dawned on me that she looked like the woman street-person who hangs around downtown. Could it be? Yes, it might. Like a dual personality--one whacked and living on the street, the other living well, dressed well and able to buy food.

Woman in the shopping center had on a hat with a lettuce-like flower attached to it. Creates some interesting story elements if it were true. Two separate lives; two totally different people.

Life is full of stories. If so, why am I not writing any? Another set of ponderings to ponder in my dreams. Goodnight, Mrs. Calabash. Wherever you are.