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It was cool last night. Slept fitfully while trying to stay warm. Awoke late. I've been feeling really tired over the past few days. Did Qigong when I awoke, and it seemed to up my energy some. But, overall I feel heavy and dull. Went to L's for a delicious dinner--body has to be in shock--three days and three substantial meals.

Today was pot roast with vegetables and gravy, pork roast in a chipotle sauce, rice steamed with cilantro and lime juice, and a chocolate bundt cake, cold Finnish beer and green tea. Still felt heavy after the meal, but went for a walk and, at home now, feel awake, alert, and very full.

Last night's dream had an odd premise--we were riding scooters or offroad bikes up and down a set of trails that bordered a jungle area. Everything looked tropical and heavily forested. We were playing some kind of game or were engaged in some form of contest. We had two spots on the scooter where we could catch and store some ball-like objects (they might have been coconuts), plus a third spot on the rear of the bike for a smaller, football-shaped item.

We were madly zooming back and forth along the trails, catching and losing the ball items. Perhaps there was a goal to the game, but I was so busy riding and maneuvering that I wasn't paying much attention to the details. At some points along the trail, the bikes might careen off into the bush and would have to forfeit any items that had been captured.

The dream was very active, but was not so active as to disrupt the sense of the dream. It was like the action was somehow muffled and set at a distance where it could all be heard and observed, but that was somewhat like watching a movie.

Stopped on the way to L's today to fill my truck with gasoline--$3.09 a gallon! Went up nearly a dime overnight. There wasn't another vehicle at the station. There were no shortages. I figured people would be coming back later today with empty tanks and would queue up and make a run on the pricy fuel. Thought it best that I fill my tank before the crowds returned from the holiday weekend.

Sat today and asked for assistance in getting my health restored--asked for help in restoring my energy levels, in body, mind and spirit. Sent out a request that my Healing Team (in the Power Healing sense) help pull me back on track so that I might do something of value and not just sit and obsess about my health issues. Over the past year, I've stumbled from one health issue to another in a seemingly endless stream.

I get a day of clarity (like I had last week) and then something new appears. I'm trapped in a spiral that keeps me off balance and filled with anxiety. Shake, rattle and roll--my new state of being. I'm feeling drained and I can't seem to get free of the push and pull of it all. Glad the holiday weekend is over. Have chiropractor and analyst appointments tomorrow, more food at L's later in the day, and starting to prep for my trip to Memphis. Going home for a visit and a look at possibilities. Take that night train to Memphis! I will meet you at the station!