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Went to the chiropractor today. I was less kinked up than I've been previously. Not sure why! Haven't been doing anything different--even perhaps doing less. Got a call from the acupressure person saying he had to cancel this week's session--he's still dealing with poison oak. He must have really gotten a dose.

I had lunch at DeeDee's and then came back and--napped. Slept a couple of hours. Awoke trembling. Had a snack and went back to sleep. I sleep but I'm restless when I awake--restless and feeling like I'm not converging but breaking into fragments--getting lost in the void.

I keep telling myself that I'm going to start doing something progressive--but I eat and sleep and never seem to breakthrough. The sleep feels good, but how much does my body/spirit want/need? Another day, another week, another month drift by--gone forever.

I've promised myself that when I recover my stamina that I'll use that energy purposely. I feel stymied in not feeling strong enough to do anything but survive--or so it seems!

I continue to read. Picked up a novel by Rick Bass. He had some excellent stories so I thought I'd try a novel. I'm reading it like crazy--I've already read over half of it. Have the Best American Short Stories 2005 next in line. And so it keeps on going! Where is that reservoir of stamina?