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Went to the chiropractor today. I had a spasm in the middle of my back right before seeing him. Good timing! He took care of it. Odd that it happened, but the timing was impeccable.

As usual, slept quite a bit today. I went down after lunch (DeeDee's)--napped and rested (read) for most of the afternoon. Until the kids got home from school!

Had dreams last night, but lost the content. Spent a lot of the day trying to figure out what I can do to jump start what I'm doing to recover and to live a somewhat normal life. Being an invalid (in valid) has run its course. I want to move on--even if it means I have to make some major accommodations. I'm becoming really frustrated with just waiting for something to happen that produces a shift and change. What if it never happens? What then? I have to take action in some way, some form.

I'm not whole now and don't seem to be getting closer to being so. I've put myself in a tiny box--which makes it possible for me to maintain, but not expand. I'm not at peace--despite my nearly two years of monastic rituals. Time to renew, refresh, and recover! So be it!