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My biological clock is turned around. Getting to sleep late (and early as well) and not going to sleep right away. Then, sleeping in late in the mornings. Always some shifts and changes going on. One thing this illness is not--it's not predictable. Always some new phenomena. Also, could have been affected by watching the Frontline special on PD--My Father, My Brother and Me. My dreams seemed to have been influenced by the show. The show airs on Tuesday night, but can be seen online at PBS.org.

Dreamed that I was living with a woman and two kids. We were about to take off on a trip. I was supposed to make a side trip and visit with a business person who was interested in some technology I had helped develop. As I was leaving with the woman and kids, she and I got into an argument. She wanted to pull up roots and move to another city. She felt that I was not being productive living where we were since jobs had been going away. I tried to tell her that we were alright--that I had at least five years of resources that we could draw on. She was unconvinced and was giving me an ultimatum. In the meanwhile, I was trying to talk to the business person about me stopping by his city for a demonstration. I was asking him (the man was MK, one of the men from the men's team) if he couldn't possibly do the demonstration remotely--he could slave my computer to his system and run the demo from his place with me being anywhere. He was acting reluctant to do that and I couldn't understand why. The technology was, after all, supposed to make just such an action possible. I didn't see why I had to fly half way across the country to sit in his office since that was what the technology was supposed to do. In the dream, I was feeling out of control and being pushed into doing things I really didn't want to do. I was frustrated and annoyed. I was feeling betrayed by my family and by my business partners. It was not a happy dream!

Did get out for a walk today. A short trek around the park route. Felt heavy and dense. Came back and napped for a short spell in my chair. Dance class tomorrow! As well as, lunch/movie with BH/GH. Also it will be ground hog's day! No shadows around here! But Phil doesn't live around here--he's back east!