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Intense dream last night. I was in a house where I used to live. I was having to leave the place. I had come back to gather my belongings and all of my stuff (books, notes, files, clothes) had been pulled out and stacked in a giant pile in the middle of the floor. Everything was totally disorganized and jumbled. I came thinking I would pack things in an orderly way, but now had to resort to almost shoveling stuff into boxes and bags.

I was really upset. There was a maid there, who had been told to pull everything out and stack it as I had found it. My daughter was there. She was quite young and didn't fully know what was happening. As I proceeded to go through the pile and box items, my ex-wife came in. She had spent the night somewhere and was acting really blasé about the whole situation, which only irritated me more. I was angrily slamming things into boxes and bags, and running a steady grumble about the whole thing.

The dream went on for a while with me finding different things that created even more upset. I finally awoke from the dream feeling hurt and angry, and worn out from the emotional tussle regarding finding my things in such disarray. Also, there was a lot of sadness around the whole scene.
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Saw the movie Crash yesterday. Intense movie. Lots of uncomfortable scenes and interactions, but beautifully woven together to make the story(ies) jell. Many unexpected twists and turns as the movie unfolds. Worth seeing even if it is a bit hard to stomach in a several places. Not a great advertisement for living in Los Angeles. Hardly the city of angels if you go by the movie, although angels are mentioned as well.

L got her first payday on her new job, so we celebrated with a movie, sushi and dessert. Feast instead of famine. Sushi place was a real zoo, especially with a table full of birthday celebrants downing shots of sake depthcharges. Of course, this noisy jubilation was accompanied by shouts and chants and the smoke machine.

Sushi was excellent though. Now, we know why we normally go there earlier in the day.

Getting a late start again today. Just wanted to sleep in this morning before jumping up and doing my Qigong exercises. Party tonight at J's--it's O's birthday. Have to get up and out to pick up some beer and finger food for the event. Windy but warm outside today. Should cool off later in the day like it did last night.

Weekend of wonder. Flags and fireworks. Dancing in the park. The 4th is upon us.