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Had a difficult time falling asleep last night. Felt wired, as if I had drunk a cup of coffee, which I had not. Spent some time on the web understanding how I might take a bus north to DragonLand. Turns out the bus fare is nearly, exactly equal to what it will take in gasoline. It will in some ways take a bit more time, but I can relax and "leave the driving to us."

Sent an email to ask Greyhound about their Go Anywhere pickets. Got a cogent reply that told me exactly what I'd have to do if I wanted to do stopovers. Gave me the details and costs in one succinct reply. Go Greyhound!

Dreams last night returned to the toy world themes. There were two parts of the dream. The first involved me working as a temporary employee at a toy company (yes, the same one as in dozens of other dreams). I somehow got an indication that I was going to be hired full time. I was asked to fill out some forms that only permanent employees had to complete. I shared this fact with one of my cube mates and got tentative agreement that the process was underway to actually hire me. I felt good at the prospect.

A second dream segment had to do with a presentation that my cube mate and I were scheduled to do. The cube mate had gotten tangled up in getting his family organized for the trip. When I stopped by his place, the ten exhibit pieces were still not packed--they were sitting scattered out on tables in his garage. I pointed out that each exhibit had a large blanket or tablecloth that is was supposed to sit on at the exhibit hall. I showed how each one could be bundled in its blanket and tied off like a carrying case. We quickly packaged up the exhibits and put them in my vehicle (his van was full of kids and family). We got off on time and headed for the exhibit hall.

Went to the chiropractor this morning. Felt good going and after the session. Scarfed up a big breakfast before returning home. Have some bills and trip plans to handle today. Cloudy, cool day with huge clouds hanging in the West.
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Went into a spin later in the day, but have recovered. Did a round of Qigong prior to the spin and that seemed to help, but still had a significant episode. Helped to get up and out into the fresh air and to grab a bite to eat. Diet, movement, and not staying locked in place all seem to moderate the bursts of anxiety. Get up, eat, move, breathe. Seems simple enough, but doesn't get at the source, the cause of the discomfort and dislocation.

Also noticed that while reading I was adding to the state. The book I was reading was a collection of SciFi stories by James Purdy. The opening story is totally contrived (as he warns in his preface--that all stories are lies) and not satisfying. I read on thinking (hoping, assuming) that the words will become magical and the story will soar. It does not and I start berating myself for wasting time plowing through the words hoping for entertainment. (Not your fault, James. Just how I am wired right now.)

Week has gone by quickly. It seems more like Tuesday instead of Thursday for some reason. Time warp: on and active. L called and left a message that was time stamped minutes ahead of the actual time. A message from the future perhaps.

Off to dreamsville early tonight. Have to relax and restore. Let the dreams begin...