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An elaborate dream last night. It dealt with a toy company (again). The facility where we were working was huge. It was multi-storied as seen from the outside, but there were several floors underground as well. Each floor was dedicated to some aspect of a toy's development.

I was new to the place and was trying to walk a project through the system. I didn't know exactly what had to be done or where to go to get it done. So, I grabbed my badge and the project files and started exploring the place.

I went down to the basement floor on one of the elevators that threaded the facility. When the door opened, I was confronted by a huge desk and a woman who looked like a librarian, which is what she was in some respects. This floor was for editing and had large tables where the project files could be opened up and spread out for review. There were specialists in this area who could perform a detailed review/edit of the project papers.

I went up to other floors. Some of them contained engineering groups who could test and evaluate the electrical and mechanical aspects of a toy. Throughout the dream, I just wandered from level to level and participated in helping the toy's development. In some cases, changes made at one level required me to revisit certain levels to make sure that the changes worked properly.

The dream was energetic, absorbing, a bit threatening since I was so new to the process, and quite detailed. There were dozens of people on each level and a host of people moving between levels for consultations.
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Had an adrenaline rush, I guess, after or because of yesterday's junket to the vege feast. Had a round of very active shaking/tremors that didn't seem to want to stop. Went through a number of rituals, but nothing seemed to change the activity. Finally got quiet later in the evening and finally fell asleep. Was beginning to wonder if I was going to be up all night.

Awoke this morning with some shaking. Did Qigong, meditated, and got up and about. Strong shaking/tremors not evident this morning, at lease not like yesterday.

Sent off my request for an intake questionnaire from the PDTreatment team. I've nearly read the entire handbook that they provide. The bottom line is that there are no guarantees--it requires an attitude shift that some people cannot make--from one of fear-based reasoning to one of joy-based experiencing. The physical techniques may well work up to a point, but without the attitude shift the changes may not hold.

It became clear to me several days ago that a "lifestyle" shift was going to be needed for me to recover fully. Since the recovery process is kind of open-ended, I need to make some decisions concerning where I'm located. I have a lot of resistance to moving, but the recovery process may require that I move to Santa Cruz. Doing so will be stressful, but not doing so will make it really difficult to go back and forth to the sessions.

But, all of these musings are a bit premature. I need to know what the PDTreatment team prescribes and then decide how best to make it happen. Ignite my joy; ignite thy radiance!

Dance tonight... keep on moving...