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Seemed like I dreamed several dreams that I had dreamed previously. Dreamsville déjà vu.

Been reading my way through the PDRecovery Handbook. Lots of information. A lot to absorb, but it needs to be done. Chapter 4 in the manuscript read like a personal history. It dealt with the type of person/personality/activities that presage a PD eruption. Basically, an adrenaline-based nexus of fears, actions, ways of dealing with the world, and mental attempts to reconcile the disparaties that lead to collapse--mental, physical, emotional and spiritual. Doing things no matter what versus operating from flow and joy.

I was blindly heading in the different direction earlier this year--with a mix of yoga, dance, qigong, and other practices. I was doing them as fixes for my problems instead of thinking about them as lifestyle. Fixes = fear-based actions; lifestyle = joy-based living.

So, the PDRecovery materials are of value even if I don't get diagnosed with PD. I still only have a subset of the symptoms, although the shaking/tremor has pushed the diagnosis forward (along with micrographia, cog-wheel joint movements, weakness in upper body strength, and so on).

Chiropractor is aware of what's going on with me. He intuitively worked on my foot/leg today, somewhat in the manner described in the PDRecovery materials. My reading and thoughts leaked through to him. Makes me feel like he's truly in touch with my energies and blockages.

Did a Qigong session earlier this afternoon. Felt good. Fell asleep while meditating afterwards. Which also felt good. Back to the books and learning more about myself.