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Acupressure massage today! Felt good, but symptoms still out front. Slept in the afternoon and that seemed to take things down a notch. He remarked that I had a lot of energy in my legs. That I needed to bring that energy up into my body and arms. Makes me think how anxiety would push energy toward the feet. Hmmm!

Anyway, I'm wrestling my way through the confusing signals. I had nearly 10 days of clarity, stillness and quiet over the past month! That's amazing given the history. I'm greedy! I want more and get frustrated when the old patterns return.

Dreamed last night that I was playing a game with three other people. The game involved colored, plastic playing pieces that had to be arranged in stacks. The pieces were like small to huge tiddly winks. There was alternate turns where you could stack from your slush pile or by taking pieces from other players' stacks. It was a game of both strategy and luck. There was a lot of action and friendly poaching of other players' pieces. I awoke with the dream running in my head.

Dental work in the morrow. No rain yet, but promises of some. Trying to kick start myself into getting started on my growing to-do list. I have nothing to do and everything to do. I keep expecting a surge of energy to push me into action. I continue to sleep instead. The time has come the walrus said! The time has come and gone and come again.

May there be that energetic surge! May it come soon, perhaps tonight!