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Day started with a bang! As I was assembling my morning smoothie, I managed to pull the bottom of the blender assembly off of the mixing jar. A complete set of smoothie ingredients went all over the counter, down the front of the cabinets, and onto the floor. Juice, kefir, fruit, supplement powders, et al, flowed like lava everywhere. What a mess!

I cleaned it up, shoved it all down the disposal, and made another one--this time being mindful of the assembly being on tight. Went for a long walk.

Was somewhat out of it today--more so than usual. I keep having thoughts about the things I need to start doing, but then the ennui sets in and the naps happen. Soon, quickly, the day is gone, over with, and I've not done anything (except clean the kitchen cabinet). Last night, I started thinking about the list of things I need to begin doing. In the stillness of the night, in the quiet that settles in as everyone goes to sleep, all things seem possible. Then, the new dawn appears, and I dump smoothie over everything and the day disappears.

The Jury Duty summons triggered some of the thoughts--life activities inserting themselves into the waters surrounding me, making waves and kicking up turbulence. The tests that Rebecca has suggested that I do. Looking for/finding a place to live. Checking out the BMR rental places here in the area. Intentional communities--research and decide. Plus the daily regimens and such.

Needless to say, the peace and stillness of seven days or so of reduced symptoms have given way to increased symptoms and associated ennui and disorder. Have to, need to, find a way through the maze, back into the flow of life. I had seven days of clarity--I can have more! And it is so!