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A little shaky today--perhaps the cooler weather is a factor. Drowsed out a few times today. I was feeling OK, but just nodded off without a lot of preamble. Felt mostly clear throughout the day as I went out for lunch and grabbed some things from Trader Joe's. Had a bowl of roasted carrot soup for lunch--hearty and delicious--also warming.

I think I had dreams last night, but they've faded now. I can't recall anything regarding what they were about.

Been trying to think my way through some form of plan regarding what's next. I can't seem to follow any chain of thoughts for more than an instant. As soon as I think a thought another clamors for attention and cuts off any connections. It's like watching scenes flash by as if I were riding in a car. Messages appear on billboards but they don't relate to each other--each triggers a new issue, a new idea. Nothing is linear and connected.

I sit quietly and let things play out. I end up falling asleep somewhere along the way. I begin again! Endless babble--endless monkey mind! Reading stories helps focus my attention for a while. Even that intervention has its limits--as do crossword puzzles. Endless diversions going nowhere. I'm wandering through a mind field!