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Week ending weakly! I stayed up reading last night and didn't get to sleep until after 2AM. That action threw off my regular schedule. I awoke late, took my medication late, ate breakfast late, and so forth. Ended up not getting out today. Where did the day go? Gone to blossoms, everyone!

Supposed to rain tonight/tomorrow. Am heading for the bed a bit early tonight. See if I can reset my clock (internal). got an email from RR, one of the men from the men's team. He's on an interferon regimen for the next 6 months--liver/hepatitis issues. May the force be with him! He's been through a lot.

I felt really energetic yesterday and into the evening. But the energy surge kept on going last night way beyond my normal sleeping time. I have been feeling some anxiety. I keep seeing stories of people with really serious injuries or disabilities who are active and engaged. Why can't I do something similar. I'm not getting anything accomplished. Just riding the daily waves, going nowhere. I'm in a vegetative rhythm and can't break loose. I'm getting spacey. I thought I took my medication in the evening a few days ago, but had not done so. I felt about the same as I always felt, so didn't notice that I had skipped a dosage until the next morning (this was on Thursday night).

Dreaming, but not remembering any details. Dreams upon dreams upon dreams! A dream of hope! A dream of joy! I wrap myself in gentle dreams.