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Spoke with my SoCal son this evening. He asked me if I remembered a trip we had made together to Disneyland. I seem to remember parts of it, but there is a lot of detail that is lost. I seem to remember less and less, especially details. I seem to remember everything through a thick fog. Events have piled upon the other and I only remember sketchy elements. I'm lost in Fogland and will never return.

Dreamed last night that I was working with a team of people designing a new toy. We were getting bogged down making a prototype. There was a whole scene where people were putting heavy, metal objects into a compartment on the toy. I pointed out that the whole thing was unwieldy and that the child might be hurt if they tried to push it up an incline. We broke up for a break and so we each could review what had been done. JH, one of the product designers, went back to our cubicle and came up with a great idea. He fashioned thin cardboard cards that had inlays of conducting wire embedded in each card. The cards could slide over each other and could be directed by small currents sent through the wire. He built a prototype and it worked perfectly. It was a joyous dream.

Rains came on and off all day. My truck's getting a bath, which it needed badly. Watched a film called The Cooler tonight. It was about a guy who is so unlucky that he works for a casino as a cooler--a person who sits in on tables where someone is hitting a lucky streak and cools down the action. He wants to leave the work but the casino's owner wants him to stay. He meets a waitress and his luck changes. That causes him more problems with the casino. How it all works out is the story that unfolds. It was good entertainment--nothing spectacular, but fun.

Weekend has been a blur. Time is moving slowly. The day drags by even when I sleep away the whole morning. I am waiting--waiting for Godot! And he is late in coming and always here already. I'm growing weary with all of the waiting around. I would rather be doing--what exactly I can't seem to bring into the light. Perhaps the solstice-eclipse will reveal the secret.