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April showers, not! No rain upon the plains today. Had a mixed day in terms of symptoms. Woke up feeling OK, but as day went on I kept getting more and more tired. Napped some but that didn't really help. Also had a flushing/redness episode in the afternoon after I had lunch (dairy and fruit). Breakfast didn't trigger any reactions, but lunch did (bananas and cottage cheese--go figure!). Feeling tired and achy tonight. Heading for the bed early. Have appointment with neurologist tomorrow, in the morning. Time for a check-in.

Still processing the movie I watched yesterday--Touching the Void! A powerful film that makes a powerful point--never quit. The human spirit can endure much more than we think it can. Even on the threshold of certain death, we can make choices that completely defy the odds.

I need to be making such choices! I'm letting huge blocks of time go by without doing anything, just letting the moments slip past into oblivion. I am so tired of doing so--I want to feel aliveness once again. Darkness and dread have overwhelmed my vision. I want more than what I've currently been accepting as the limits of my realities.