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Made it to dance class yesterday, but was blitzed after 2.5 hours... Actually, I was done in 2 hours--the final 30 minutes was a blur. I zoned out when I got back home and stayed in that state until bedtime. I did sleep well last night--I don't recall getting up in the middle of the night.

When I got home after class, the grankid was home. She asked me if I wanted to play and I told her I was tired and just needed to rest. I asked her if she wanted to see some of the dances I'd been doing. She said something sarcastic (which is amazing for a 5-year-old) and asked if I wanted to watch her dance. I said that I did and she tried to start the CD player. It was set to radio and her disc wouldn't play. I offered to help her get it started, but she again refused. She told me to stay away--that she would do it.

This action on her part is an example of some ongoing hostility toward me that she exhibits. If I agree to play with her (doing a puzzle, acting out one of her elaborate stories, dancing, playing hide-and-seek, and anything else), she goes into a control mode of interaction. Nothing I do or say is to her liking. She only wants to order me around and completely control my actions--what I do, say, express, or suggest is completely negated. I'm told not to do it the way that I'm doing it--and do it explicitly her way. If we are playing a game, she continually adjusts the game rules so that she "wins". It has become quite frustrating to interact with her--and not a lot of fun.

I'm puzzled by her attitude toward me. I somehow seemed to have triggered a belief on her part that I am a threat or a problem. Her way to minimize the threat is to impose absolute control over my actions and interactions with her. She becomes pedantic and harsh--it's her way or the highway!

She is really smart but seems to lack some ordinary social skills--at least when she interacts with me. We shall see said the honey bee! No dance classes today!