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July 4th weekend coming to a close. Been a busy one. Went to party last night at J's--quite a crowd for his daughter's birthday. There was a cadre of people making music. I managed to hit the drums a few licks. Felt good to play some once again.

There was a mix of food, but I managed to eat selectively and not overdue things. Moderation made it work for me.

Still felt strange trying to talk to people. Sense of drifting in and out of conversations--like listening to a radio station that's fading and growing clear in an oscillatory fashion. I've starting to not try and correct what I'm doing--just letting it be and see where it takes me. It's a lot like I'm listening to a different channel in the middle of talking and interacting. Strange!

Today was really packed. Got up a bit later than normal, did Qigong, and then showered etc and picked up dessert for the party tonight. Went to L's to pick her up to go to Chili Cook Off and dancing. We stayed about three hours and danced a fair amount. My therapist was at the event. Said hello and noted that I'd see her tomorrow.

We then went to party at PH's. Great food and an interesting collection of people--inventors, patent attorneys, cafe people, wine experts and others.

Was sort of in and out of it all day. Dancing helped ground me. But, I did keep feeling as if I was still fading in and out of contact with everything all day, from the time I awoke. Starting to feel like that's just how I am. I still miss not being 100%, but you can only do what you can manage to do. J remarked last night that I seemed to be moving slowly--a comment that I've heard several times now. Moving slowly; looking frozen; unable to vocalize; and such.

Well, tomorrow it's back to the chiropractor, some Qigong, see the therapist, dance class, and sundry other ritual steps. And see where it goes.