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Dreams | about people | meeting people | lots of them...

Busy day... went to chiropractor--new practitioner... makes me concerned about how things are going there... Looks like the other practitioners have been let go. Dr. S was really good and was doing the bulk of the work--with him gone, I would think there would be patient defections...

Changes, changes. Change is good.

Went to doctor for a physical. Everything OK, except for the PD-like issues. Told him I was going to try going forward without drugs and see what happens. Didn't get into the PDRecovery stuff with him, but will do so with neurologist on Thursday.

Rain this afternoon. Hope it stops some in the morning--have an appointment for a truck servicing--early in the morning...

Have begun the PDTreatment questionnaire. Needed to talk with M&E about their offer of a room and what it might entail. I'm visualizing that my recovery doesn't require extreme measures in terms of care, but it is unpredictable. Almost complete with the reading of the Handbook. Covered lots of things that I must address, especially negative thought patterns and fear-based thinking processes. How they can impact the recovery... How to switch to joy-based thoughts and patterns.

Example: This morning, when I entered the chiropractor's office, I noticed that there was a new practitioner. My first thoughts were a negative stream of sound bytes regarding why Dr. D wasn't there, why did he let Dr. S go so abruptly and not have coverage, who was this person, how could she possibly know enough about me to give me a treatment/adjustment, why was she wearing clothes that looked like they were from a Harry Potter movie, and so on? Hmmmm!

Instead of: Oh, a new person! Wonder what she might discover/uncover that would help me with my issues--something new and healing perhaps?

In the moment, it can be done. Without the lag and the later recognition of what took place. It's a matter of intention, practice and in my case a necessity. Dis-ease as a spiritual crisis.

Like the book says, it doesn't have to be every thought. Just start inserting joy-based thinking here and there, and teach myself how to make it happen more and more. Relax, breathe, let go, be at peace! What else is there?