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Dreams were lost last night. Disappeared into the dream haze.

Had an up and down day (so what's new?). Felt anxious this morning and carried some of that anxiety with me to Spanish class. Some of the anxiousness seeped away as the class progressed, but not entirely. When class was over, I went and got some food right away. That helped pull down some of the remaining tension. Then I took some medication (first time I did so right after eating) and took a short nap.

Ended up staying home tonight and not going to dance class. Sitting in the stillness (this place is really quiet as soon as it's dark outside) felt like the thing to do. Spent some time reading up more on PD and the medication. Wanted to know when I could expect results from the drugs. Turns out, it can be 1-to-5 months assuming that I even respond to them.

Read some scary information about Long Term Care Insurance, which I won't be eligible to get once I've been diagnosed.

Did Qigong session this morning before heading off to class. Will do some more tonight. Kept returning to the thought of getting my living space in order and being able to sit still for extended periods of time. Dancing in the stillness. Accepting what is, learning who I am, and becoming still.

Well, time to close this device and let the night times roll. Ojala que si!