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Dreams | of people | of family | no details now | just the whisper of the heaters |

Been experimenting with chamomile teas. When I drank some last night, the tremors abated for several hours as I read and went to sleep. Dreams were muddy, perhaps from the tea. But there was stillness versus yesterday's shaking and vibrations.

I had a cup with breakfast and even diluted with the food there was a quietening for a few hours. Will try an afternoon cup or an after dinner cup and monitor the symptoms. Thank goodness (God-ness) for something so simple and benign that helps moderate the symptoms.

L is up in Sonoma today for a pre-holiday festivity with her friends. We didn't make it dancing last night--she because of things she needed to get done--me because I was still and didn't want to move or go out in the cold.

People are out shopping and gathering for the holiday. Spending and paying, making the holidays brighter.

Rain is falling. It's starting to come down harder, tapping away at the windows, striking the leaves of the garden plants. I feel like hibernating, wrapping up in warm blankets, making an herbal tea, and staying still, exceptionally still.

There is a dance tonight, but it's up North and with the rains I may let it pass as well. Wonder how long the rains are predicted and with what intensity? Will check the weather site, eventually. Being without a TV and only listening some to NPR, I've lost track of things. It's been over a year since I've had a TV available. I've been absorbed in my own dramas, but hopefully they are nearing a resolution. Tea time, stillness time--let the sleepy times roll.
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Ate dinner and went to the library to pick up something to read. Haven't had tea yet. Found myself getting quiet after eating. Maybe this morning's tea is still having an effect, maybe.

Feeling pretty good compared to the past several days. Wednesday evening had the first quiet period. Then last night, and this today. Had a tamale plate for dinner--good solid food.

I want to jump up and shout over the relief I've received in these moments of stillness. Also realized that it's been about a month since I stopped the medication. Could it be that it's taken this long to empty my system of the drugs? I wouldn't be surprised. There are stranger things that could happen. Or, just to add to the confusion--Are the brain supplements kicking in? Too many variables. Glad that there's been some respite. I was beginning to wonder what I was going to do to maintain until next month. Thanks to the universe for this much needed break.

Listening to Prairie Home Companion in the background. Beautiful sounding women's group singing, making harmonies--The Wailin' Jennings (??) out of Canada.

In the news there was an announcement of Jack Anderson's death. He was diagnosed with PD in 1986. He was currently 83. He stopped working in 2001. And, so? No particular reason for noting this event except that it was mentioned that he had PD. Of course, I counted the years--he was diagnosed when he was 63 and I'm 66 and so what? Just rabbit mind making noises and creating dissonance.

Will do a tea report tomorrow should I take a cup tonight. Right now not feeling the need to brew a pot. Listening to PHC and the holiday songs...sweet, sweet songs.