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Dream scenes | stark | geometric forms | endless repetition | smooth concrete buildings | that seemed to extend forever |

I was walking through the geometric landscape. Every now and then, I'd stop and reach down into an opening in one of the forms and pull out a person or and object. Everything seemed to be hidden in the openings. There was a silence, a stillness, that permeated everything. As I moved or lifted people/objects, there were no sounds. The action looked like it was slowed down. All the movements were smooth and fluid, like a dance or ballet. It was very peaceful.
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Awoke to a lot of shaking. Tried to fall back to sleep, but didn't make it. Finally, had to get up and start moving. Did Qigong series and tried to meditate. Had a difficult time sitting still. Made it up and out at last. Went to the grocery store, library, bank, and came back to eat here (yogurt, mango, bran muffin). Wasn't that hungry since I had a substantial meal last night. Indian food, again! Something about that food really agrees with me right now.

Saw the man who walks downtown who has a severe case of PD. He walks and stumbles, but seems determined to make his way. He was the one who was frozen and needed help getting started (a few months ago in the bakery).

Talked with landlord (H) and learned that his son-in-law has PD. He's on medication and doing well. He's able to travel and work without any severe problems.

I tickled the Treatment Team people regarding my schedule. Would like to confirm things with them before moving--although I'll move anyway--just for the exercise (NOT) so that I'm staged over there whenever treatments begin. I'm still holding to the belief that I'll be better off in the long haul by not being on medication. Want to give the PDRecovery process a try and see where it takes me. But, the shaking/tremor is becoming more noticeable (to me) and makes me long for any moments of stillness I am given or that I create.

Landlord said that they had a guest room that I should feel free to use if I come back over the hill. That was a nice offer from him. I was touched. I've been touched by everyone's support and well wishes, offers of help moving, and general concern. Nice warm feelings.

I continue to visualize myself as healthy even with the shaking and symptoms. I see myself walking, running, moving effortlessly and reaching a point where I am glowing with good energies. I continue to ask the universe for its guidance, support, intercession, joy, healing energies, and helping me learn what I need to learn from this condition. I ask that I be given the wisdom to know why I've been asked to walk this path, this route. May the universe respond!

Probably going dancing tonight. Movement is mandatory! Will go for a walk while the sun is out.
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Did neither. Got too cold walking. Drank some Chamomile tea with dinner and tremors abated. Instead of going out into the cold, stayed wrapped in blankets and enjoyed the non-shaking that took place.

Also forgot to post this entry... was enjoying the quiet so much I forgot that I hadn't posted...