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Dreams | are like shadows | dancing on the wall | leaving no trace of what was there.

Dream slurry keeps happening. Partially caused last night by poor sleep. Not sure what caused a flood of sleeplessness right when I decided to close out the evening. Tossed and turned last night like I was in a butter churn.

Perhaps triggered by the good news -- I've been accepted into the PDTreatment team program, which starts all manner of balls in motion. Good and goodly news! Adrenaline mind starts in right away. Natter, natter, what's the matter? What can go wrong? What kind of problems is it going to create? But I'm getting smarter! Yeah! Yeah and oh, yeah! Release the joy, send out the heralds, announce the birth.

So, anyway--Have sent off a proposed schedule. Looks like I'll be moving over the hill the week of 1/8/06 and will start sessions with the team the week of 1/16/06. The rest is future history.

Did blood tests today and started the wonderful PSA recordings. Spent a valuable hour (plus) with GH establishing the ground of being for staying in a state of openness and not fear. Finding that sanctuary--the lake scene--where I was in touch with stillness, peace, openness, and joy.

Went to restorative yoga class and encountered more stillness, peace and joy. Lots of stillness today despite the shaking. (I thought about saying in my note to the PDTeam that hearing that I was accepted left me shaking with joy, but I controlled myself. I'll save it for later.)

What else? Lots of things today. Little moments. As if the shell around things is breaking up. Yoga teacher read a passage from Gay Hendricks book where he describes a transcendent experience he had that flipped his world view, put him in touch with bliss. Where he shook with joy. May we all have that chance, that opportunity, that richness.

So I dream tonight of healing light and the welcoming of guests into the place where I am still.