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Dreams | of people | and groups from the past |
I was at a cafe and there were lots of people at the adjoining tables. It was like some type of get together of people to meet each other--a single's club of sorts. I knew a lot of the people. At some point, I left and walked outside toward another venue. I saw my friend RB there. We went in together and were confronted with groups of people from the past, from history. There were people dressed in clothes from the various periods. The atmosphere was like a scene out of the Cirque de Soliel.

Had a relatively good day today. Awoke, as usual, with tremors and not enough sleep. But started smoothing out as the supplements took hold. Still had thoughts about how I'm feeling and functioning. Called my youngest son and left a message for him to call me, that I wanted to ask him a question. He called back but the phone numbers got tangled. Tonight, he called back and I asked him a big question--Would it be possible, in the case that I continue to falter, for me to come and live with him should I need to be extracted from over here. He's talking it over with his wife and kids, and his mother. I know that it's a big thing, a crazy thing to ask, but I feel the need for a safety net if things get too out of hand. He'll let me know tomorrow. It's wouldn't be an easy thing for him and his family to do, but I felt I had to ask.

M&E are staying up north tonight. They'll be back tomorrow evening. My first night alone here. Things went well. Anti-stress supplements seem to be working. I made my standard dinner--steamed veges and rice with Japanese seasonings and topped with a nerve elixir--finely chopped and mixed serving of lethicin granules, almonds, brewers yeast, wheat germ, sunflower seeds, sesame seeds. Tasty brew! Was good with basmati rice.

L called and after we talked she went online and picked up some valuable info regarding taxi rides and volunteer drivers for seniors. I really appreciate her initiative and good thinking--something I've not been doing. Now there are even more options. The taxi fares sounded amazingly low. I'll check those links tomorrow and get into the details. Nice to get such quick support in making this process work. Look forward to tomorrow's news from these places.

I realized when M&E left that I've been so used to being alone that interacting with others, closely, is something I've forgotten how to do. Also, I'm walking on tiptoes trying to keep things smooth and unconflicted--which is crazy-making. It's something I've done all my life. I was OK tonight alone, but that's a situation that's not going to be the norm for awhile--I need to make some adjustments, and not just with a chiropractor. I feel like I don't want to impose, but I'm already imposed--I'm here. M&E knew what they were agreeing to, so they're relaxed and open. I'm the one whose running old tapes and movies--especially the ones that deal with tiptoeing.

Tiptoe through the tulips and the tulips get smashed! Have to take real steps no matter what the outcomes. Friday 13th tomorrow--my lucky day!