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Today was a mixed bag in terms of how I felt. Awoke feeling a little buzzy, but did Qigong, had breakfast, and felt somewhat better. Went to meditation healing group where tremor became pronounced. My right arm and side kept stiffening, especially as we sat. Breathing into it helped, but by the end of the session I was back to feeling really buzzy. I walked home by taking a long route, Walking felt good even if my feet/legs felt heavy and stiff.

Rested some when I returned. Then got up and out to pick up some groceries and have lunch at DeeDee's. As I ate, I kept experiencing my hands/arms feeling heavy and not all that coordinated. After eating, I went by L's and let her dog out for a bit. The dog was listless, about as listless as I was feeling. He seemed to think that since I was there that his owners weren't going to be coming home. He's been mourning the fact that L's son has been out of town. Now, he seemed to be thinking, L is gone as well. Woe is me!

Anyway, I sat with him for about an hour and then came back home. I read and rested some. Apartment was warm--a preview of summer times to come! I managed to write checks for a few bills and the rent. That process was very frustrating. My handwriting was exceptionally poor today (heavy arms/hands) and made the simple task a chore and a challenge.

L called and reported on her journey to the city for a seminar on wealth. Sounded like she got a lot out of the workshops/talks. B called to say hello. He's in between trips to Utah. It's starting to cool down some now. I'm feeling a bit more awake and less buzzy, but heavy. Have to visualize lightness--the unbearable lightness of being.

Tomorrow, I meet with Rebecca in the afternoon for a health history review--and that will give her all the data she needs to do a nutritional plan. Have to remember to take all my supplements with me in case she needs to know what I'm taking now.

The heaviness and stiffness I'm experiencing is about the worse I've felt since I've come back from Santa Cruz. (Perhaps the worse I've felt since all of this started.) I need to keep moving so am making plans to do more yoga, exercise, and dancing in the coming weeks. Will go to a treatment session in a week, but hopefully can get lighter and more loose before then--the universe allowing. My strength seems to be increasing, which will let me do more each day.

Remember, a voice in my head says, it's only been a few weeks that you've been settling in. You have all the time in the world. There's no requirement that you have to be a certain way by a specific point in time. Remember!