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Made a run on the storage locker today. L helped and it really has made a difference in the apartment. Brought in a few items such as the worktable at which I am now seated. Some rugs are on the floor. Some decorative vases are on display. The key thing we did was retrieve all (I believe it was all) of the kitchen items I had stored away. A full set of dishes and eating utensils. My blender and juicer. And other miscellaneous items. Didn't have as much kitchen things as I thought might be there. I was fairly ruthless when I moved and got rid of many things.

I even made lunch as we unpacked and dispersed the retrieved items.

So now the kitchen and living room are livable. The areas are sparse, but that leaves room for juggling, yoga, Qigong, and so forth. Bedroom is next on the agenda. May go the IKEA route again. Will make a trip there to check out the bed I'm considering. There are many (too many) options.

Also will soon make another run on the storage locker to retrieve all of my art pieces. Lots of wall space in this apartment. Can turn it into a mini-gallery. Hmmm! Just noticed that I didn't retrieve my CD/music system. Need to remedy that even before I make an art run.

Also need to get a mouse for this computer. I've about had it with the touch pad. Think I'll do better with a mouse/trackball or such.

Day went fairly well even with the hauling and moving of things. "Doing the things a healed man were to do, if he were healed." I buzzed out after a few hours. Eating helped restore some equilibrium. Came back after taking L home and continued the sorting and unpacking. Missed taking a nap. I'm tired, but feeling positive.

I keep thinking of the information in the article on Total Biology (yesterday's post). There was the statement about having the brain/self switch back to health mode from illness mode:

The task for the person is to bring
awareness and understanding to the emotional
conflict(s) he has lived and either find a solution or
fully let go or transcend or grieve the situation - in
other words, remove the stress energy to zero,
eliminate the need for the survival program (the
disease), and increase the possibility that his brain
will automatically switch from disease program to
healing program and restore health.

I've been looking at what emotional conflicts I've lived so that I might bring them to awareness--with the goal of taking the stress levels to zero. I'm also looking at my current stress levels and working to bring them to zero as well. Even the trip to the storage locker was held as something that needed to be done so that it is complete. Also the results of completing the clearing would result in a more livable space--which is stress reducing.

It's as if I'm making a stress sandwich where each stress incident completes something and results in additional stress relief down the line. I want my brain, which is noticeably fogged up rather easily (by any of many actions--shopping, doing laundry, organizing things, and many other activities) to switch to my healing program and restore my health.

I'm currently experiencing a "bubbling" sensation in my right arm, on the back side, just above the elbow. Why, I don't know. It's not exactly the same old tremor, but a frog-like muscle twitch that appears to want to manifest. I think getting a mouse will relieve some of the tension in that arm when I'm on the computer. I think the touch pad is causing some tension in that arm/muscle. We'll see. Will get a mouse/trackball tomorrow.

Hope to make it over to the healing group in the morning. Supposed to get cold tonight (was fairly cold last night--lots of snow on the surrounding hills). Doesn't look like it'll rain tonight. The group is close enough for me to walk over there.

Well, the muscle twitch is becoming insistent. My arm/muscle/body wants my attention. Need to listen to what is being said.