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Worked with Janice this afternoon. She gave me a lot of insight into what may be in store down the road. My "tiredness" may persist or alternate between feeling good and feeling like crap. At first, the feeling good states may be short, but they will grow as I persist with the practices and increase exponentially. At the start, it may not look this way, but I'm advised to hang in and continue to maintain a positive outlook and keep a global perspective--it's not any particular day's state that determines my final condition--it's the cumulative results that matter.

She advised me to be prepared for some not so good times--it will be a function of what I need to clean up (physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually) that will determine the severity of the recovery process states.

We stopped the tremor during the session and my arm is quiet. We worked with my right arm and hand and loosened up my right forearm and fingers. The work went quickly and she again encouraged me to consider cutting back on sessions and only coming over as needed. She says I've got all the data I need at this point--I just need to focus on practicing what I've learned.

Told her about my juggling experiments and she said there had been another person who recovered and also juggled. I made it through two full cycles today--six throws and catches. It's coming back. And, it does make my brain feel good!

So tomorrow is moving day. Packing up and heading to the new apartment, and a new life--literally. It will be a totally new one from what I've been doing. Janice spoke of learning to live two lives while the recovery process is still underway--the "normal person" and the person with symptoms. She also spoke about having to live differently in the new life--not recreating old patterns, which are what brought me to where I am.

There may be some interruptions in my daily blog entries until I get connected to an ISP at my new place. I've got two treatment sessions scheduled on Monday and Wednesday of next week, but most of my remaining time will be dealing with settling into my new place. I'll continue to post as I find WiFi access until I get connected.

Initial treatment sessions are almost over. Next comes mostly maintenance sessions as needed and the nitty-gritty of working on myself and all that entails. I am grateful for what I've learned to date, for the many good thoughts and wishes from everyone, for me being reconnected to the Father and the gifts he has sent my way, for M&E's generous use of their place for the past two months, and for the opportunity to take the next steps.