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It's been a long day. Tremor showing up nearly all day. Been making calls and looking for a place to live. That activity seems to be triggering anxiety and symptoms. L suggested that I break things down into simple steps. Good idea! Have been, as per last night, looking just for a temporary place over in PA--one I can move into and use as a home base while looking for something more permanent. Makes sense, but still requires keeping on top of listings and trying to be there first--adrenaline behavior--with my adrenaline tank being dry.

There was an "ideal" place listed back on the 17th--a furnished studio sublet for 3 months. When I call, I get a vmail system that is in overwhelm--it announces that it is not working properly--probably because its message memory is full.

Feel a bit more grounded now that I've eaten dinner. May not have been eating enough today--that also triggers symptoms. Tried taking a nap, but couldn't fall asleep. Been doing a fair amount of movement today--Qigong, walking, moving with the light body (an exercise where I visualize my light body initiating a movement and follow it with my physical self. Helps energize my physical being.

Last night, as I sat for awhile, I attempted to ask my heart to ask my mind why it needed to continue tremoring. In doing so, I ended up with my hands and fingers placed on my forehead as if I were touching different acupressure points. What happened is that the tremoring subsided. I became quiet and when I went to bed, I dropped off into sleep fairly quickly. Not sure what I was doing, but the result was good.

The friend who pointed me to the Law and Promise book just sent me a pointed to the Abraham-Hicks materials. She said one book of theirs deals with thoughts similar to Law and Promise.

Anyway, today was not one of my better days. Will revision it tonight and see tomorrow being spectacular. Have a session with Rebecca tomorrow--late in the day. Looking forward to working with her.

I want to say something profound, but nothing of profundity manifests. So goodnight Mrs. Calabash! Wherever you are!