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Day of sleep! Eat, sleep, eat, sleep! The rhythm of the day. Guess it was some kind of recovery from yesterday's adventure--the trip over to SC for a treatment. While there, I stepped on a scale--I lost a couple of pounds from about a month ago. I would rather have gained a couple, but I'll settle for no more big drops. Rebecca suggested that I consume more coconut oil to bump up my daily calorie count. Have started doing so. Will also increase portion sizes some as well.

Session went ok. I was in some kind of anxiety space that I couldn't shake. It was only near the end of the session that I grew still and quiet. It happened after Rebecca led me through a guided meditation involving energy flows and the chakras.

What became clear to me is that I've put a lot of attention on the physical side of things. And perhaps not enough on the spiritual/emotional issues. I've been "waiting" for the physical symptoms to go away/change and they persist (tremor, digestion and energy levels).


Meanwhile, I grow weary of my current (physical) surroundings and the noise levels/noises. Yesterday, I managed to get still at the end of the session. That was due in part to the quiet place where we were working. There are periods of quiet here, but there's a lot of ambient noises and sounds. A persistent babble! It's no excuse, but it has affected me and I'm going to have start looking for my next (quiet) place.

Even as I write, there's a gaggle of kids in the courtyard making kid noises. They quiet down after a while when it's time to eat. It would be fine if I had the energy to interact with them and play games, but I don't!

Six months coming to an end since I moved here. I find it difficult to see what I've accomplished over that amount of time--except got a lot of sleep and lost some weight (what a lot of people probably wish they could do). Otherwise, I feel like I've been in stasis.

I was reading yesterday that some scientists have verified the existence of dark matter. Aside from the technical details, they mentioned that 75% of the universe is composed of dark energy, 20% is composed of dark matter, and 5% is ordinary matter. Perhaps my last six months were spent in an alternate universe in the dark sphere. It's the only plausible explanation!

Kids are gone! It's back to just ambient noises (traffic and such)! Nap time (or is it time to eat)?