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Sun Day! Beautiful day! Felt good to go outside today and look into the bright, blue sky and feel the soft breezes. Today was a quiet day here on the ranch. Got dog out into the yard with the tennis ball launcher--a jai-lei like instrument that lets me launch a tennis ball to the nether reaches of the yard. The dog zooms after the bouncing object, grabs it in a death hold, and takes it to another part of the yard. He's missing the final concept--returning the ball to the launcher. Oh, well! Can't have it all!

I've been going in and out of phase all day. I slept in somewhat late and felt bad for the dog and the fish--being kept in the darkness while the day turned to light. Made peace with the dog by doing the ball game with him. The fish don't have a concept of forgiveness--just light/dark and fish food floating through the bubbles.

I thought about going to the spa today, but did not do so. Just meandered around and about, letting the day fade away. Thought a lot today about what is it that I am doing, heading for? Can't seem to shift from my passive, wait-and-unfold attitude onto a more decisive, intentional path. I want to break the pattern and zoom in and focus--get things done, aligned, produced. But each day/week/month finds me at the same junctures, the same forks in the road--alternate paths I don't even see as I mechanically head down the same trails.

Here I go again! Down the same old road again! Counting the flowers! Watching the birds! Floating with the clouds! Dancing with the donuts! Singing with the trees!

I'm a little concerned with the upcoming week--a week filled with shifts and changes, holiday activities, noise and motion (instead of the quiet and stillness of the past week) and all that stuff! I've been dreaming intense, like-real scenarios--lots of detail, characters that I know, and feelings of things slipping away. Dream the dreams and they will tell you what they sing!