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Pilates today! I'm getting stronger even though I've only begun to do multiple exercise sessions. The two Pilates classes that I've been doing and the one yoga session are starting to show results. I have to add some resistance training--like the two per week classes I was doing at the PI. Also have to integrate my afternoon "down" period into each day's regimens. After my eye surgery is complete, I can add an additional activity (or several) in the open times.

Dog is reacting to me in a more positive way--he's getting used to me showing up each day and going through nearly the same routines. We played a couple of rounds of chasing and retrieving a ball over the past two days. My ex dropped by today to visit MD (my ex's mother)... good vibes between us. I feel a bit awkward with her (and rest of people living here) but I'm acclimating. I feel like I want to pitch in more with day-to-day activities (cooking, lawn work, chores, together time, and such) but also at the same time have to struggle to free up energy for such things. Right now, I go each day until I feel like I have to collapse, zone out, and stop all interaction. Plus, there is the cluster of upcoming activities (support group meetings, eye surgery prep and event, finding a neurologist, better integration with housemates, communications, and more and more).

Somehow, everything I'm doing seems to be random and not integrated--not focused on the key issue in my life--my symptoms and the healing of these conditions. I know that it can be done--I have a distinct belief that things can be reversed and put back in order. How, exactly, I haven't a precise clue, but the thought comes through several times each day--as does the sensation of well being. I need to figure out how to expand those isolated moments into a solid intention that overlaps all I do. Nothing more than that--nothing more!