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The campers have returned--MD spent the whole day worrying about their arrival.

I went to the PD support meeting this morning--there is a dynamic there that focuses on the negative, the hopelessness of it all, the progression. I find that I want to jump up and move while we sit there--frozen in place.

I had a detailed dream last night--I was in a small community and was touching base with people I once knew. HMcA was there performing a play about all of our lives--I went up to her and DS and gave them both huge hugs. It had been years since we had seen one another--we were all healthy and upbeat. The dream had two parts--first the play and all that it entailed and revealed about our lives. The second was more in the now--we were talking with each other and sharing what we had been doing with our lives. I was disease free in the dream--I could feel the aliveness in my body.

As seems to happen after each PD support session--I feel at a loss regarding what I am doing and what I am accomplishing. I feel that I just should be doing something more meaningful with my life--doing something other than just making it through the days.

I went to Annie's and had the Thursday special--meat loaf, gravy, salad, garlic bread, vegetables, mashed potatoes. It was filling and comforting--I wasn't hungry at dinner time.

It's 9:30 and I'm fading--nothing planned for the morrow.