1902-1901

Missed posting yesterday--not sure why. Went to dance class in EDH--lightly attended. It was way hot yesterday--and more so today. Today I went to an RSB session--and came away zonked. From the exercise and the weather--could hit 111 degrees today. Even though there's AC nearly everywhere--the heat is stifling and tales its toll despite the islands of coolness.

No classes tomorrow--have a service appointment for my car early in the morning (8am). I had a smoothie and a pastry before RSB session--but didn't do a lunch munch. Grabbed a frap a short while ago--and picked up some salmon and salad for dinner. I'm a bit wobbly from not eating something for lunch--I did down a V8 Fusion and a dose of vital reds which got me through the afternoon.

I think that I'm getting stronger and better in many ways--but I also feel like I'm also going in the opposite direction is other ways. My dancing is slowly getting less and less polished--my festination is getting more pronounced. I feel like I'm living to exercise--instead of the other way around.

I have moments of clarity and good feelings now and then--and when they come I give a sigh of relief and soak in the glow for as long as it lasts. I keep thinking that I can get to a state where the illness is in the background only--not in the foreground as it seems to be now.