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I started taking one of the new medications today--the one that helps control uric acid buildup (allopurinol). I only have to take one each day--but will possibly need to take it for quite some time based on the chemo that I get.

I'm just floating along today--I had a full day yesterday. Did RSB, no naps, several caffeine drinks, and dinner/movie with family--which kept me going until 10pm or so. I'm feeling cloudy and dull--I just want to go to bed and sleep.

I'm sitting in the living room--with my ex and her mother in the dining area. Their conversation is about lots of things--each one of which washes over me and brings me back to my empty thoughts. A lot of their conversation is about who died when--and what they died of.

I need to get a reading on when I can have the PET scan and spinal tap done--which will set me up to have the chemo regimen. I can't get motivated to get on with these needed tasks--I just want to ignore what I need to do.

Have an RSB session tomorrow--I look forward to the interlude that provides on these periods of nothing happening. Yesterday was tiring--but felt good to have a full active day.

Looks like I'll take a short nap--and let the rest of the day unwind. Sleep and dreams--the soft quiet voices of the sea.