1513-1510

Daze go by--and daze do fly. There is something in my eye--don't know exactly why. Maybe I'll see things clearly now--my oh my.

July is now half way done--and there is no breakthrough or morning sun. I'm gimping and limping along--making my way from one nap to another. I can't seem to find the go button for my life--I keep careening off the road and getting lost in the undergrowth.

I wink out for days at a time--sleep, eat, and lose track of events. No continuity to my life--just a series of random events linked together by a blurry calendar and brief interludes of waking.

My BP is low--and seems to be pegged at that level no matter what is happening. I miss exercising--but can't kick-start my desire to do get moving.

Have a Trager session booked for later this afternoon--maybe SMcD can give me a jolt of energy or help me generate some traction in that direction.

I had a green tea latte--and a V8 Fusion both of which contain some caffeine. Will see if this infusion helps lift the veil--and wakes me from my lethargy. Tonight is family night dinner--but I'm leery of what may transpire. My daughter and BH are battling over something--despite their pretenses of nothing happening. Their turmoils are registering in my psyche--and I feel unnerved by whatever they are dealing with. Just got a sign from BH that all is not well--and it hasn't been for several days.