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Mixed bag of dreaming last night. Definitely was dreaming, but awoke in the dream and caused the dream detail to go away. It was a dream that had some relationship to LF or another company. We were reviewing some of the historical files and had isolated a batch of data that was related to what needed to be done. The word "Getty" kept recurring in the dream dialog.

Now, the details are gone. I seem to recall that the dream was tedious or felt tedious in some way. Ho, hum. Just another dream.

Was tired after dance class last night. Cold symptoms have all but disappeared. Have a sore nose from all of the blowing and such. Got up this morning and took clothes to laundry. Then made it to yoga class, which I was considering kicking last night. Now am glad I went. There is a healing level to that activity that I need to expand and make more prominent in my life.

Spent part of yesterday and last night (also this morning) visualizing lots of healing light flooding over me, flooding through my systems. I need some intervention and I'll take what I can get and what seems to work.

Had a leisurely lunch (frittata, bear claw and coffee). Will eat/drink some more before heading for dancing tonight (B&B). Dances every night this weekend--B&B, QS on Sat and reception on Sunday. Yeehaw!

Remember some of the Fusion dance from last night's lesson. Got a review of Soluna. Still a lot of dances, but what the heck.

Continuing to read the O. Henry stories. Some great writing; innovative tales. One author mentions the fact that he had made 116 drafts of the story. It was worth it. The final result was moving and wondrous.

So, when do I start writing? Today? Tomorrow? Never? Today is the first day in weeks where I'm not battling some deficiency or dread. Feels good to just be out in the soft air, the light sunshine, and let the woof and warp sink in, fill up the dry sponges in my soul. There is a sensation of wanting to go charging forward, but also a reluctance to jump so quickly after having had so many down days in a row.

Even my dreams were phantom-like. Detailed and solid until I was ready to record them. Then they quickly turned to smoke and drifted away. No need to hurry seems to be the message. No need to jump on board the moving train. Let it reach the station, let it come to a resting place, and then step aboard, take the ride.

There were stories sitting all around me a lunch. Bumped into RLB. He's got a new fixation--shortwave radio. Listening in on the world and all its pieces. Looking at people today. How most do not have their attention on their physicality, their body, their processes. Not like I do; not like I've found myself attending. Limitations I can understand, but malfunctions, maladies and misfires seem to require too much attention, too much concern.

So how do I move myself to a place of health and safety? How do I create myself as healthy and not dis-eased. It's like there's a switch somewhere that I know I can throw and the molecules will align, the air will clear, and I'll start functioning as before.

Karma. I am burning karma now. Burning up the structures that I've either ignored or have failed to make priorities in my plans and thoughts. So I burn brightly now, consuming in real and virtual fires the elements that I've brought here, that have to be examined.

Sacred sound today was RAM. Fitting. The sound of my own self emanating from the hearts and souls of strangers. RRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMM. Distinct and clearing. A sound meant for digestion and the collection of jewels surrounding the chi chakra.

RRRRAAAAAMMMMM, Sri Ram, Jai Ram, Jai Jai Ram.

Reminds me that I must use these coming months to lay out a plan, a goal, a set of tangible accomplishments--no matter what the objections heard or the considerations imagined. Time has come, the walrus says--to speak of many things.

I keep wrestling with the bugaboo of qualifications and accomplishments. I read and hear from writers who have invested lifetimes in creating stories and bringing them to life. What can I hope to accomplish? I have spent a lifetime not doing much of anything of significance. So why will it change from here forward? Because I say so, because I declare it to be so. For what that may be worth.

Enough of this rebounding for today. Time to read and rest, retrieve and relax. May the devas find me a path through the magical garden, the lush collection of living things.