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Will be picking up my new notebook computer in a couple of hours. Went for an iBook -- 14-inch model. Bought some extra memory and held off on getting MS Office--will see how AppleWorks works first.

Feeling better today. Still experiencing dull spots and still had to take a nap in mid-afternoon. Woke up around 4AM to the pitter-patter of rain. So only got some mixed sleep last night. When L returns, I'll be on this new early morning time cycle. Should mesh better with getting to sleep early, reading quietly, etc.

Met with B & R last night. We were the sole members of the monthly team meeting. B got some great news yesterday--his cancer is gone--looks like for good. He's been a warrior and it's paid off. An inspiration.

I came away from the meeting a bit lighter than I went in. It helped to share with someone that I'm struggling. Good to verbalize it and externalize it--not continue to hold it in.

RR didn't make it last night. I need to follow up and see how he's doing. He said he'd be there, but it's a long haul for him and the costs to him are not what he needs right now.

Watched an eerie show on TV last night--The Inside... Whew! No wonder I woke up at 4AM. Probably would have done so even without the rain.

Food continues to help me bridge the strange energy spells. I've started eating less bulk, but more often. Grazing. Seems to help keep my energy levels balanced. I keep craving a chai. Wonder if a lot of the malaise I'm feeling is about me stopping caffeine. It's been several weeks now, but I'm craving as if it were yesterday. Detox. It's like I'm going through a form of detox. Not the short term withdrawal symptoms, but a delayed reaction as my system tries to adjust.

As G suggested, I may have been using caffeine to counterbalance the depressive moods -- somewhat successfully until I stopped the stimulants. Oh, well! It's all just conjecture and not really that much help in dealing with the current symptoms. Naps work fine--naps and food.

Got a call from L earlier today. She was in a pub enjoying her next-to-the-last night in Helsinki. By late tomorrow evening (my time), she'll be climbing aboard the FinnAir leg of the flight to begin her return. Will be good to have her back. Will be good to move back to my place as well. Looking forward to it. Just two more dog walks--plus a bit of housecleaning to be done here.

Did have some dreams last night, but they were scattered when I awoke so early. Dreams will be there. Listen to the dreams. Sun breaking through this afternoon. Rain clouds scattered and moved onward. Time for a new computer. Oh, boy!