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Strange set of dreams last night. Probably triggered by me going to sleep so early and for so long.

One dream involved snowmobiles, snow, and crazy antics by people riding the vehicles. It was dream jumble of crashes, wrecks, flips and spins. One man kept revving his engines and then releasing the clutch, which sent the snowmobile into a wild spin. People were whooping and laughing, and no one seemed to get hurt despite the reckless behavior.

A second dream dealt with pile of debris--trash. I appeared to be living in a cabin in a wooded area. Downhill from the cabin there were mounds of trash that I was attempting to pick up. Someone was helping, but kept asking questions regarding what to do with each item. I kept saying to just pick it up and put it in the trash cans that were sitting around the place. The dream was productive--we cleared away a lot of loose debris and helped restore the area.
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No to mixed news on the apartment hunting activities. Got more proactive, but ran into some thoughts about getting a somewhat nicer place. Go ahead and spend a bit more to get a bit more. Have to change locations to make that happen--probably get a place in RC instead of PA, MP or MV. Have calls into a couple of agents and an appointment to see a place down the street (here in PA) that might work.

Have had an interesting 24-hour period. My rankings regarding my shaking/tremor states have been a steady 4 (0 to 10 scale) for the past day and a bit. Feeling good, feeling healthy and shaking/tremors subsiding. They're not completely gone, but they've subsided. I still have low level tremors if I just stop, but while I'm in motion they have abated. Stress situations bring them back momentarily. Stress includes not eating on a regular basis.

Didn't dance last night or tonight. Feeling like I want to exercise some. Still several weeks to go on the current medications, but looking like it's taking the edge off of things. Good news/bad news. The good news is the shaking is lightening up. The bad news is the implications for such results.

As I drove about today, I couldn't help but notice the huge numbers of people beehived into apartment buildings. Everyone has grabbed a set of cells in the hive, decorated them, and made turned them into nests, into places away from the rest of the world. Except the world creeps into their cells via TV, radio, CDs, DVDs, internet and more. The world fills up the cell space, the nest with world debris, world stuff.

Do I have a point? Not really. I was just reflecting on me reflecting about the many people who are settled in a place, a space, a cell of grace. Getting late--time to renovate, meditate and medicate. What an exciting time (not)! It's actually a positive sign--I'm getting bored. I've been so wrapped up in my health drama that I haven't had the time to be bored. With the health issues coming into focus, my attention wanders and I start getting bored with it all.

Oh, the mind and soul send mixed messages to the universe.