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Dreams | elusive | not recalled |

Also didn't awaken gently, by letting my spirit slowly reinhabit my body. Awoke and flopped around until I got up to go to the bathroom. Yesterday, I awoke slowly and brought myself to consciousness.

All of this activity was prompted by the final chapters in the Handbook. In those chapters, a lengthy discussion is presented around the idea of playing tag with the body parts. Seeing, visualizing movement and then having the physical self follow along. They talk about how in sleep consciousness is withdrawn from extremities and body parts, and then is expanded back out when awakening. The encouragement was to actively notice this process and to be with it when it happens as part of the recovery.

The overall admonition is to not be on automatic about everything. Stop, see, hear, listen, learn, be open, foster joy, and don't revert to old patterns and habits. Anyway, I regressed this morning. Get to try again tomorrow morning and on and on, until I don't get to do so.

Spoke with RS today. He was letting me know that CR had passed away, after a long illness. Last time I saw CR, he looked pretty fragile. RS and B will be down this way next week and we'll have a lunch together. Will be good to see them.

My foot seems to be ready for recovery. Been getting twinges and tingles in my right foot--as if it's anticipating the upcoming recovery sessions. Also restarted the brain supplements today. Will see if they affect things one way or another.

Plan to dance tonight--or try to at least. Have a slight cramp in my lower right calf. Probably related to the foot twinges. Will stretch out and see what happens. Can always sit down if it becomes to bothersome.
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Ended up not dancing. It's gotten really cold and I just want to hibernate. L and I went to MV and had a dessert and a tea (for me)/coffee (for her). Delicious pecan bars! Now that's turned on the dopamine system.

Feeling energetic and shaking has been minimal despite the cold weather. It seems that the brain supplements have at least a placebo effect, maybe more. Will take a few days to gather more datapoints, but I think there's something there--of course there's always something there (there). Hmmm! Getting Escherized!

At the cafe, there was a man talking with a woman about some film projects. He talked non-stop for nearly 1.5 hours and he was talking when we arrived and when we left. The woman said almost nothing while he droned on and on about the importance of communications. Hmmmm! The universe requires all forms to create the fullness of expression, perhaps.

I'm feeling like there's something I need to start doing. Not sure what that might be, but am feeling the urge. It's like a yearning. I'm feeling like a shift is imminent, likely, poised. A shift to what or where or when isn't clear. Perhaps it's the rapture? RB told a story last night about a preacher who arrived at a church for a sermon, but the place was nearly empty. He asked the few people there if perhaps the rapture had happened. That would explain why there were only a handful of people present.

Time to dream of rapture--of floating in the mists of time until the sun returns--a time to snooze.