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Dreamed | it was a new year | and it was | Happy 2006! |

Dance last night was fun. I was struck by the uniformity of movement when I sat back and watched. Everyone in motion, moving to the beat and making the patterns. Some of the "observer" types were mesmerized. Also the lights and colors--the dancing, blinking lights made the place glisten.

And food--there was food galore. Good food and stacks of desserts.

Was also a bit sad. I couldn't help but think of this dance as my "last" one for awhile. P was there looking manic as always. Big crowd--130 people. Non-stop music and dancing for 4 hours. I was somewhat tired by the time it was over, but my energy was good through most of it. Near the end, I was starting to fade. My symptoms stayed in the background for most of the evening--thanks to the Sleepytime tea I drank in the afternoon. I felt relaxed and clear.

"Last" dance moments with certain pieces of music and certain dances. My legs got heavy toward the end. Need to find something similar when I go over the hill. Just to keep myself in motion.

Got a call from DH's wife letting me know that DH had passed on. It was strange. I had gotten something from my sister that let me know he was gone. His wife left a message on my phone and the caller ID identified DH as the caller. Dead man calling! Moment of strangeosity. What would he have said had he actually made the call? What would anyone say? There's a story in all of this.

Winds up today and more rains promised. Darkening outside as the clouds sweep overhead. One week to departure day. One week that will slide past quickly. And then onward to recovery I go!