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Got a mouse! Much better on my arm and hands than the track pad. Also retrieved my stereo system from the storage locker. Set it up and it's now playing Hapa. Slack key guitar music counts in reducing stress levels. Nice to have music back in the room. It's been over a year since I've had access to music on demand.

Not sure if the AM/FM tuner works on the device without adding an antennae. Will also try the tape deck since I have many tapes with quiet, peaceful music.

Kind of a lost-in-space day. Got up late--later than usual. Didn't make it to the healing meditation group. Have been a half track off kilter for most of the day. Kept moving, but didn't go anywhere, or so it seemed.

Made out a "list" of things that need to be handled. One part of the list involves things to do (taxes, for example). A second deal with things I need to pick up (vacuum cleaner hose, for example). A third part lists the daily/weekly (or whatever frequency) things I need to do to stay on purpose, on track (Qigong daily, for example).

The presence of a list might seem to be stress-producing, but it feels the opposite to me. As I cross off each item in the first two parts, I feel a bubble of stress dissolving from my consciousness, moving away from me and leaving me healthier. Some things on the list have deadlines (taxes), but most are things I could so, will do, as time permits and situations develop. Bottom line: I feel better for making the list and that helps reduce my stress levels.

I'm obviously still pondering the excerpt from the Total Biology article that I posted yesterday. I'm, in my mind, increasing the possibility of my brain activating a health program to replace the illness program that has been activated previously. I'm examining the emotional conflicts that I've lived, which have resulted in the illness program. Stress levels to zero and all will be well--I will be well. In some ways, I'm already there. But, I feel like there's sticky strings, like spider webs, still holding me in place. I want to sever those strings.

One of the items on my daily/weekly part of the list is "write" and do so daily. I have been persistent about posting to this daily blog. Now it's time to raise the ante and write daily on other than the blog. I'll continue the blog and begin to write beyond that as well. If I produce anything of interest, I'll post it on the blog. I'm starting out by writing for a half hour and will increase the allotted time as I progress. It would be silly for me to say I'll write for longer than that right now--I couldn't do it. So, I'm setting a modest goal--one I can do.

With all of that careful ground setting, I'll do my first half hour in the morrow.

I'm starting to buzz out a bit now. Didn't take a rest today and with all of the running about, I'm starting to feel the missing down time. So over and out on this, once again, cool evening and night.