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False Evidence Appearing Real--FEAR! That was MSR's version of the acronym. Seems like a better reading than most that are found on the Web. Also ran across this quote from the Rigpa daily "glimpse"--

In a sense everything is dreamlike and illusory, but even so, humorously you go on doing things. For example, if you are walking, without unnecessary solemnity or self-consciousness, lightheartedly walk toward the open space of truth. When you sit, be the stronghold of truth. As you eat, feed your negativities and illusions into the belly of emptiness, dissolving them into all-pervading space. And when you go to the toilet, consider all your obscurations and blockages are being cleansed and washed away.

DUDJOM RINPOCHE

Very appropriate quote as related to my eating, sleeping and eliminating cycle of daily deeds. I practiced some of what he suggests today--walking, sitting, eating, and so forth.

Slept like a log this afternoon! Lay down after lunch and went out for several hours. Had an Afghan veggie feast of rice, eggplant, spinach and pumpkin--nice combo. Was going to eat a light lunch and have dinner at DeeDee's, but Afghan dish made that unnecessary.

Breathe in truth; exhale compassion! That was today's mantra and practice. Visit with MSR yesterday stirred up lots of thoughts about what it is that I'm doing or need to plan to be doing. Eating, sleeping and eliminating get me through the day, but have no substance, no meat, no compassionate outcomes.

I think I keep expecting to wake from one of my many sleeps and be "over" my problems, my issues, my symptoms. I awaken and find myself unchanged so I fall back asleep as if it's going to work the next time. Why do I expect that it will change, automagically? I know that it's not going to happen, yet I persist. I can't seem to find the handle to make the change.

Starting to cool down now. Evening comes creeping into the sky and streets. I'll probably read myself to sleep eventually, if not before. Sleep and dream! That "sleep of dreams"! All will be revealed, eventually!