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Was sultry this morning and windy, but now the rain has started. Forecast is that there will be rain for several days, on and off. Managed to get in my walk (long route) this morning--slipped in between the raindrops. It's early afternoon and I feel like resting/napping. I've been in a "different" state over the past few days (almost a week)--symptoms quieter, but still not fully energized. The sputtering of a cold engine returns to mind.

Feeling like I'm emerging from being embedded in a block of concrete. Feel as if I'm coming unstuck somehow, but no clear direction or focus to this undercurrent. Keep getting spurts of motivation, but can't hang onto anything for very long.

Nap/rest time! More later!
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Rested, napped, and did life force exercises. Also ate, read and snacked. The Goodall book is getting more interesting. She's now in Africa and starting her study of the chimpanzee band in the preserve. She was there during the time of the uprisings that chased the Belgians out of the region. Not a great time for two white women to be going into the bush. She was there with her mother.

The book leaves no doubt that she was remarkable in many ways. She was persistent, flexible, had incredible stamina, adaptive, and really clever. She was in Africa about the time I was graduating from high school and going to college. She had a vision and was following through on what she saw for her life.

What was I envisioning back then? Nothing with clarity. I was in fogville and have remained so until now. Now, I'm starting to unfog, but it's not that easy, not that simple to make happen.

Feeling the low pressure system operating with the incoming rains. I'm feeling heavy and dense. Heading to an early bed tonight. Need to sleep while the rains fall. Perhaps dream that I'm unfogged! (Hmmm! In my dreams I'm not foggy! Hmmm!)