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When I came back from dinner last night, I had a "clear" space for about 2 hours (and on into my sleep time). The tremor stopped and the sense of pressure released for that amount of time. Why? Nothing I can point to as a cause. Had to drive up the peninsula to their house. Cafe was busy and noisy (food was good). I ate something simple--soup and 1/2 sandwich with a cup of herbal tea. P and his wife talked virtually non-stop. It turned chilly by the time we finished and I drove home on the bayshore freeway madness. Lots of stimuli, doing several stress-related things, and a clear space emerged. Perhaps it was just relief to be back in my cave, but it didn't feel that way. It felt like several things clicked into place and I went still and symptom-free.

Was good to get the experience that I encountered--stillness, lightness, energy, and feeling normal for that period of time. Today everything reset to the standard symptoms and energy flows. Although, I do seem to feel a bit like last night on most days, after I do my afternoon exercises and eat dinner. It could be just a respite caused by knowing the day is winding down--that I survived another one. But last night's sensations were more like the several "clear" times I've had during the past year--almost all in conjunction with eating a meal--some with travel involved.

Anyway, it was a good experience to have had. Each episode lets me know that becoming clear is certainly possible--just an issue of duration and what conditions create the shift.

Thought a lot today about making plans for what's next for me. Someplace warm? Most likely, although I've noticed that after the first few cold days I'm not reacting as strongly to the cold. I am bundling up, but I seem to be acclimating somewhat.

Someplace with some community! Don't want to continue to be so isolated. Economic! Has to be! I'm going to be stretching things fairly thin as it is without medical issues being added. Rural, open, not crowded, not noisy, and many other parameters. Like I said, I need to get clear on my criteria and begin the search. As Omar sez, "The bird of time has but a little way to fly, and lo the bird is on the wing!"

Have a treatment in the morrow over in SC. Cold but sunny! No rain, thank goodness! On the road again!