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Happy Valentine's Day! Was a day of shifting plans. Got up early and got ready for the trip to SC for a treatment. Had a call as I was about to leave that the PDTeam all had the flu and that we'd have to reschedule for next week. So, I went for my walk. It was a clear, warm day and it felt good to just be walking versus driving over the hill.

Came back and had to nap though. Eventually went shopping just to get out some more. Came back and rested some. Stomach still doesn't feel 100%. Spent several hours just sitting, feeling the symptoms and feeling out of it. Finally I did my afternoon exercises and experienced a lightening up of things. Been just sitting daily (not in a full meditation posture) and going over the SRF exercises/lessons. Reached a point where I was visualizing what's so for me--what type of place I want to be in for the next few years.

Kept seeing a place in nature--lots of trees, hiking trails--someplace rustic and simple. There were other people nearby, but not on all sides of me like now. I lived alone. It was peaceful, quiet and still. I got the full sense of what my spirit wants and needs. Climate was moderate so I could be outdoors a lot. There was some physical labor required (gardening, clearing, and so forth)--nothing monumental, but enough to keep the muscles happy.

I got a clear sense for such a place. It's like I was given a psychic road map of where to start looking, what to look for. I have no precise idea of where such a place exists, but I received images and sensations to guide me.

What I'm doing has to change--and it will--but hopefully in the direction of what I was seeing. May take some time to actually find what I saw, but I have to look. The default alternatives are too chaotic, abrasive and disquieting--too confined and limited.

My rent here just shifted to a month-to-month situation (and went up some as well), which gives me the option to pick up and go when I can do so. I look forward doing so and living as I saw myself living--in balance and at peace. May it be so!

Didn't win the MegaMillion last night, but no one else did either. Will take another shot at it on Friday! Keeping my arthritic fingers crossed (as far as they will go)!