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Good session with the chiropractor this morning. I was much less tight/tense than usual. Session caused me to relax even more and I came home and slept for several hours. Later, in the afternoon, I started feeling antsy--feeling like I want to be doing more than I am--tired of the limbo state in which I continue to persist.

Read some in the Mortality set of stories. Weird stuff! Don't know if I'll be able to finish them--they are anxiety-producing, or so it seems.

Dreamed last night about a maze of rooms and houses that people were trying to negotiate. I was helping people find their way through the labyrinth. I was like a concierge who knew all the nooks and had all the keys. Some places were physically difficult to get to--people had to climb sheer walls and walk across treacherous routes to reach some rooms and cottages.

Although I was proficient at locating places, everything in the dream felt askew--off balance and not conforming to logical routes. At times, there were puzzle-like steps that had to be taken in order to get to certain places. And then there was the issue of how they found their way once they got to their rooms. Could they ever safely leave and return?

Muggy today! Feels heavy and damp like there could be rain, but that's unlikely. So, I feel heavy and damp as well--without respite of rain. I return to the question posted yesterday--What is my true direction in life? I've been holding it up throughout the day.

I get floods of images and memories--of times past and days spent. They are not the answer, but part of the emerging future--songs of what might have been. Time unfolds and with it a tapestry of circumstance emerges--like a dream that happens now, forever and completely. I hear whispers and I hope to understand their meanings. Soon! Soon! Soon!