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Merry solstice and happy Xmas eve! The beat goes on and it's not pleasant. Tremor is up and sleep is down--plus energy levels are low. Been eating a variety of foods, but nothing has kicked the energy switch back on. Aside from a lot of shaking, I'm feeling weak and wimpy.

Still not getting complete sleep either, which is helping fuel the turmoil. Tremor creates anxiety and anxiety creates the tremor, plus food/energy issues--an more! Just discovered that the landlords are offering a unit in the complex for nearly $1,100! That's $275 more than I paid for my first year, and $225 more than I'm now paying! Expect to get hit with an increase after the first of the year--how much is the question! I'm not in any shape to relocate, but may have to do so. More uncertainties! More anxiety!

If I were moderately functional, it would not be such a big deal--but I'm drifting further away from functionality and well being. More anxiety and more shaking! Deep breaths aren't working like they once did.

Dreamed somewhere over the past two nights about being in a quiz show. It was a trivia-based game show and I was one of the contestants. The hostess was some kind of android. She was posturing in front of the cameras while we waited for the show to start. There was an excitement building. It seemed like it was going to be a lot of fun.

L dropped by last night with a care package of various soups. She thought that miso soup might kickstart my digestive tract. Big bowl of it helped me fall asleep for a couple of hours--but no new data regarding energy/assimilation connections. More input with less output and no kickstarting activities.

So merry Xmas to all and to all a good night--may I sleep well and dream the dream of dreams!