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Logy, heavy day! All of the lymph drainage work that Rebecca did yesterday showed up today. Feels like I'm moving through molasses. But, tremor was better behaved today. I still awoke with it (early in the morning), but it has moderated some today.

Went for a brisk baylands walk. Had a baby burrito for lunch (name refers to size and not to contents). Been taking all of my supplements. Energy has been up, down and all around--nothing predictable. Getting a bit quiet now--my afternoon grace period.

I am so frustrated with not being able (if that's the correct state) to do something constructive with all the aspects of my life. There are dozens of mundane tasks that need handling and all I can do is drift--eat, sleep, and eliminate--I barely manage even those three items. I manage to squeeze in a visit to one of my bodyworkers, but then it's back to the basic three.

It's clear after the past few days that my tremor is as psychological as it is physical. The cold weather didn't help except to accentuate the anxiety-driven shaking. Today, I spent a lot of time telling myself to be calm, be at peace, and be quiet. I did lots of deep breathing exercises. The baylands walk helped as well--it was quiet there today.

There has got to be a path through this madness! I need to find it and walk it, soon! I grow old! I grow old! And so does this process!