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C&M class today was a workout! (It always seems to be so.) I came away feeling better than I felt when we started. It felt good to stretch and work the achy body--which was stiff and achy from not doing much that was physical over the weekend.

I dreamed an odd and twisted dream last night/this morning. I was with a large group of people, many of whom I knew from past work and associations. I was trying to tell everyone about my PD symptoms and some of the effects they were having on what I could do or say. As I was talking, I experienced being unable to speak clearly and to use the correct words for what was happening to me. I felt really frustrated and saddened as one after the other person turned and walked away. I managed to tell a few people about the cognitive dissonance I was exhibiting but could not address the whole group because my voice was weak and intermittent.

I experienced a passage of time in the dream. I was much older and very fragile. I was nearly alone. There were only a few people still around me. I wasn't able to make myself understood by those that remained. I felt really sad and disconnected from everyone and everything. I felt heavy and dense, and felt like I couldn't stand up or move.

Today, as I was leaving the PD Institute's C&M class, I saw LW (a man who was taking the PD dance class late last year). He looked quite fragile and unsteady. I talked with him a while. He was still having problems with getting his medications correct and was not doing well. It was a shock to see him in that state and how emotionally painful it was for him. My he find a way to get some relief and stability. May we both be well!

PD dance class tomorrow and resistance training. Onward and onward! Always onward!